This will be me in Montana this fall.
Folks are always recommending talented rappers to me. I don’t look for complex, deep lyrics though. I look for funny, creative motherfuckers who make me laugh at the dumb shit they say.
“Never been a pillow-whisperer. Young niggas movin’ straight up. Never been a grind nigga, straight up. Young niggas lookin’ like food. Ya gettin’ ate up. I got a fork, give me a napkin, hold ya plate up.” -Lil B
Genius.
I’ve dated a lot of gorgeous women and looking back on it, I’m pretty impressed with myself. There is hope for continuing this even though I feel like a moron when it comes to girls…
Let me dig my own grave.
Let me, oh precious noose of mine.
You are my mother,
Whose womb around my neck
Grants me a world of cold nihility.
An endless winter night.
A bitter, black frozen hell…
For me, forever…
(Source: misskacierose)
Going to begin playing guitar again. I want to start a solo black metal project.
Perhaps it’s absurd, but I really just wish someone else could experience my subjective experience. I want someone to know what it is like to be me. Why? I’m not sure… I just like the idea.
I get in a certain state of mind when I think philosophically. It’s quite different from conventional day-to-day interaction with others. In this state (that of the first sentence) I cannot help but immediately retract whatever I say because I realize the arbitrariness, the pointlessness of it. I pose an idea to someone and immediately follow it with “or not.”
Speaking on philosophical matters always enacts a strange lucidity in me, an altered state of consciousness where I cannot care for anything of my conventional life. I realize the silliness of earning money or chasing girls or anything of that nature. A Christian friend of mine told me he gets the same feeling and that he interprets it as the holy spirit possessing him. That is an interesting interpretation.
Why do I speak at all?